It seems that, for whatever reason... I turn into a real biz-natch the day before and the day of chemotherapy. I'm in a bad mood, everyone around me is an idiot, and my eyes get sore from rolling them after every dumb statement I hear (which is most of them). I can see and feel myself turning into a total raging wild-a-beast, but it is SO hard to maintain a pleasant outlook and refrain from saying all the nasty comments that stream into my mind.
It doesn't help that I am completely unmotivated to get anything done, so, as I survey my room and house in general, the clutter of it all makes me even more annoyed. Now, not only and I in a pissy mood, but seeing the clutter around me makes me feel frustrated, plus I have no motivation to fix it, and that lack of desire makes it even more worse!
I SEE all the stuff going on, but my body does nothing with it... leaving me annoyed and annoyed at being annoyed.
Annoying, huh!
Christine, It is okay to be bitchy when you are not feeling well. Chemo sucks! You are super brave to have the great outlook you have most of the time. I love you!
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